I'm just so Silly

That I can't believe my mind is racing at such a pace. That I have to come up with rationalizations for this whole situation. Why I make excuses not to. How the start of the whole situation is so familiar that I almost loose my breath. How I start to try and see the day outside of myself and ponder. Just ponder. And smile at non exsistant daydreams, lost in a world of my own. Flashbacks of caught moments. The limit of possibilities. The small flicker of desire. Curiosity..............Hopeless relent. How I have to hold on to the thought of the whole thing with every last bit of strength.